Saturday 18 August 2007
o.k., that was not supposed to happen!
The other thing that was not supposed to happen was me bailing on The Good Catch Craft Fair. (There were alternative titles to this post, such as "Bailing", "Do as I Say, Not as I Do", "On Not Following Through", and "Committed?" - there really is a plethora of choices in this field.....)
Life's been full lately, inventory has been low, I could feel this coming, and I feel horrible that my name's been on their cute little advertisement and yet my table will be bare today. On the other hand, I slept well last night, was not crafting until 2am and will cherish one of the last weekends in summer with my family (we're going down to the fair to show support for the local talent, though - couldn't miss out completely! :-)
Letting go is not easy for me. If I had stayed the course, my vision of what I should have done for today would have kept me up until all hours. Maybe letting go could have entailed me being satisfied with what I had and going down and hanging out anyway. But really, that's just the other side of the same coin. Letting go is also saying that my sanity is worth risking a missed opportunity.
When I pressed "send" on the email, Mr. S asked me how it felt?
Really, the same as if I'd said yes.......but with a lot less panic!